Beach

May. 6th, 2016 09:34 pm
imagineireann: (Roses)
I have the strangest desire to be sitting on a beach; somewhere tropical, with clear blue skies, translucent water, golden sand beneath me. A book in one hand and a cocktail in the other.

Unfortunately, there's so much wrong with that image I don't even know where to begin!
I hate beaches, sand getting everywhere and making everything all gritty.
Hot sun? I'll turn into a lobster.
Cocktail? I'd rather an ice-cold bottle of beer.
And I couldn't sit still for five minutes without getting bored, getting up and wanting to do something. How do people do it? Lay there for hours cooking themselves? How are they not bored?

So I have no idea where this daydream came from. I suspect it isn't mine so if you've lost it, let me know and you an come and pick it up...

Where would I rather be?
I'd like to be wandering the streets of Amsterdam. It houses more historic buildings than any other city in the world and it has one of the largest historic city centres in Europe, consisting of 90 islands linked by 400 bridges. Most of its historic buildings and streets have remained unchanged since the 19th century, due to the fact that there was no major bombing in the city during World War II.

Where am I?
London. I do however have that ice-cold bottle of beer in my hand!.
imagineireann: (Roses)
Today has been a day of lists. Sometimes I'm able to organise myself, sometimes I need to write a to-do list... and some days I need multiple ones. Today has definitely been one of the latter. Between going on holiday with Jade Rachel earlier in the month and the long weekend we've just had for Easter I've been feeling more than a little discombobulated.

I am now feeling a litle accomplished so I'm taking a moment to celebrate a couple of small victories. Go me!

I still need to chase a couple of content writers. Deadline is Thursday and I've heard nothing from them. Feeling a little concerned.

I would love to go to the cinema. I want to see Batman Vs Superman. As does Jade Rachel so I'm thinking date night (if we can get a babysitter). Jade Rachel and Caden Bryce also want to see Zootopia.
I'm really hoping superheroes win here!

I need to do laundry. I hate doing laundry. It's probably my least favourite chore. I want to be able to pay for someone to do it for me. That would be a wonderful luxury.
imagineireann: (Daisies)
An interesting meme I've seen on blogs over the last couple of days - [personal profile] vanillamagick included, so I'm joining in ad posting about the 5 Things in My Purse at All Times

Wet wipes/hand sanitiser One of the perils of travelling by public transport, you never know when you're going to touch something unpleasant.

Pocket rocket vibrator Oh, don't look at me like that. Sometimes a woman gets frustrated during the course of her day and needs to get herself off in the bathroom!

Spare pair of glasses I'm as blind as a bat without my glasses, and I don't get on with wearing contact lenses all day. Spare glasses are essential as a 'just in case'

Hair accessories Ive always got a couple of hair grips and a band or two with me. London can get very humid at times and avoiding bad hair day frizz is always handy

Tablet computer For working on the go

That's not to say those are the only things in my purse, but those are definitely among my essentials.
imagineireann: (Love More)
Sometimes it's amazing how fast time goes by. It's like life has started rushing by like it's trying to break a land-speed record and I'm scared it's going to pass me by and I'm going to miss it.

How is it possible that we're coming up to Jade Rachel & I's first wedding anniversary? I still remember the first moment I saw her and that was six years ago now. SIX YEARS.
Note to self: what are you going to do to celebrate this?

How is it possible that Regan is 18 this year. 18, driving, (hopefully) leaving home and going to university. And Caden Bryce is 5. I was there when he was born, this tiny little wrinkled baby and he's now this exuberant 5 year old who loves cars and monkeys and lego and counting.

I feel like I blinked and half a decade has gone by. I remember how long the six-week school holidays felt as a child, stretching out into this foreverness of freedom. And now it's almost March - weren't we just celebrating Christmas?

Can we please slow time down a little so I don't miss anything?
imagineireann: (Daisies)
I'm relatively certain that a lot of people who read this blog also read my step-daughter [personal profile] reganoutloud's blog and will have already heard the news but I feel the need to write a proud mother post. Because Regan, my sweet baby girl, has been accepted into her first choice university. Providing she gets the exam results she's predicted - and she's predicted higher than she needs - she will be leaving us in the Autumn, and moving almost as far away from us as is possible and still actually be on the mainland UK. From London to Aberdeen. Hope she's got her thermals and electric blanket packed!

I am a little sad at that, at the thought of her leaving the nest but at the same time, I am so so SO proud of what she's achieved.

The last couple of years haven't been easy for her. Her mum died, Jade Rachel had a breakdown and Regan ended up living with her father. Not that living with her dad was at all a bad situation just completely different to everything she'd experienced at that point. It took Jade Rachel a couple of years to pull herself back together, get back to London, regain custody of Regan. And then Regan had to cope with moving a couple of times while they found the right house.

And then there was me. It cannot have been easy for her to have me come into her life, to have her other mum falling in love with someone else. Neither Jade Rachel or I will ever replace Regan's mum Shaine, and nor would we want to. We make sure she's still part of Regan's life, as much as we can. Regan also had to cope with not being an only child anymore and having this baby, then toddler, around.

She didn't only cope, she excelled and she blossomed. I have had such a pleasure watching her grow from a smart tween to this intense young woman. Have I mentioned I'm really fucking proud of her?
imagineireann: (Adventure)
I think I have an 'About Me' page for my website that I'm pretty pleased with. Thank you, all, for your tips and advice. It was very much appreciated.

It goes some thing like this )

Please do let me know what you think - all constructive criticism welcomed :)
imagineireann: (Blue Dreams)
One of the questions I seem to get asked more than anything is how I can be both Christian and bisexual. 'Oh, you're Christian? But I thought you were gay?' is the usual reaction.

Yes, I'm Christian.
No, I'm not gay. I'm bisexual and married to an amazing woman.
No, I don't think the two are a contradiction in terms.

My general response is along the lines of God created me the way He saw fit and He loves me. I mostly tend to feel sorry for people who judge me based on who I love and pray for them to be more aware of the love that surrounds all of us.

I have never felt unloved by God. I have never felt alone. He sees my actions, he feels my emotions, my pain - sees me striving for greatness - when no one else can or will ever know. I find truth in the innate desire to never feel alone, to fall in love, to live happy, to become what one dreams to achieve.

If all those subjective reasons to believe in God mean to you that I'm delusional - it's what people put a word and meaning to feelings they can't describe, to hopes they can't share. These are things that are deeply engraved into a person's soul. The truth is - no one has ever seen God, and no one can produce him. It's a risky belief for some because God can't be produced. This is when people build faith and fuel it with going to church, reading the Bible, praying, serving others.

However, when one seeks to know if God exists - something incredible happens. When one receives knowledge that God is real, one can never deny (even under penalty of death) that God is real. I takes a sincere dedication to live that way.

Overseas

Jan. 13th, 2013 10:27 pm
imagineireann: (The Road Less Traveled)
I have itchy feet, or maybe it's spring fever. I feel like I've been in one place for too long. The same apartment. The same job. The same hair style. The same wardrobe.

I caught myself looking at jobs overseas, wondering what it would be like to just up and go somewhere, anywhere, that isn't here. Just relocate and do something different, somewhere different. A complete blank slate. A chance for new everything.

It's such an exciting prospect.
Not one that I can actually do though. A few years ago, I would have just done it. Just picked up and gone. But now? Not so much. For once, I actually have ties, a reason to stay. (Of course, if Jade Rachel was willing to relocate with me, that would be a different matter).

A change is as good as a break. Maybe I need to redecorate, or look around at different apartments. Send my resume out to a few places. Go to a hair salon and get a new hair cut and/or colour. Buy myself new clothes. Get a make over.

Or just go on holiday... somewhere that's not dreary and grey. That sounds nice. Where's nice this time of year?

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